Sex
I'm falling fast in the 'hot blogs' poll so I'm guessing that perhaps this title might boost my rank a bit. Really, though, that's not why I entitled this post "Sex" though. Perhaps a more appropriate title would be Soccer Moms Need Sex Too.
Sex. I really don't get enough of it and this has me thinking about it all the time. Not all the time because I can go weeks without missing it or thinking about it much at all but sporadically all the time. When it's in my brain its there and I'm imagining what it would be like with my daughter's high school principal, my other daughter's softball coach (even last year's coach who I worked with in the ballfield concession stand a couple of nights ago) and the same daughter's soccer coach who I've long been friends with and thus, get to actually touch and be touched by sometimes. Of course all of these guys are married and I even get along pretty good with most of their wives but still.
I truly love Ray and our relationship is fine but as he's gotten older, the sex has become very occasional and not the earthshattering experience that it once was. It's also been like a decade since I've even been with anyone else and I'm just wondering what I'm missing out on. I'm really not a whore although this post sounds like I am. I am a 40-something (isn't that when women are supposed to be at their peak?) soccer mom who goes to church and tries to model appropriate behavior for my kids, particularly the oldest with whom I've talked alot lately about the virtues of waiting until you know it's "THE ONE" who you'll be with for the rest of your life. I really tried to do that but it obviously didn't work out so well for me.
I know guys often feel like this which is why I'm wondering how I can communicate my semi-availability to those previously mentioned b/c I'm guessing most would be open to a fling as long as it didn't mess up their marriage, etc. I'm also wondering if other women get as bored as I do with one partner, especially when he's quite a bit older. Or am I just weird that way?
